BBQ PIT BOYS

This is the yummiest site ever !!! Droooooooling !!!

Thanks God I'm not a vegetarian !!!

Puumaja - Täydelliset kasvot

Video to a song from one of the finest 2009 albums.

TransAtlantic, Hala Arena, Poznań 06.05.2010

Ordered x 2 !!!

Good Days

These passed few days were filled with serenity, comfort, tenderness, excitement and peace of mind. Spent some time with my friends who came from Wales with their son to visit their families. We hang around in one of Tychy's pubs chatting, laughing and having a great time. I took two days off on Thursday and spent amazing time with Caroline helping her to get her apartment organized and cleaned up a little. I could see tranquility in her eyes and again we were looking into each other's eyes with the feeling as strong as one year ago when the whole adventure was beginning. We parted on Friday evening going to our homes only to meet again Saturday afternoon. This weekend was absolutely charming, relaxing, watching movies, talking, walking around the city, going to church together, sleeping nestled and even FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE ice-skating on Tychy's ice-rink. Gotta admit that skating is pretty cool though the much time is needed to tame the freaking runners however the fun is worth it. Caroline talked me into skating and throughout our time there she was so supportive, patient and kind. She's a real angel.

06-05-2010 TransAtlantic in Poland

I can't believe it, after a decade since its last tour, Transatlntic is touring again. On May 6th Transatlantic is going to play in Poznań's Arena Hall !!! I'm so going to be there regardless of tickets and train price. It will be wonderful to participate in this prog-rock celebration watching and listening to talents of Mike Portnoy (Dream Theater), Neal Morse, Roine Stolt (The Flower Kings) and Pete Trewavas (Marillion). Hopefully I won't go there alone what will only make the whole experience even more magic and breathtaking. That info truly made my day.

небеса

Spent an absolutely fabulous time with my Caroline this weekend. It was only 24 hours or so but it was such a high quality time that it fueled me with strength and peace for long, freezing days to come. There was nothing out of the ordinary in the way we spent these hours but there was a sense of magic and tranquility present in the air. We were talking and watching the "Brock Lane" movie, fell asleep entwined and entwined we woke up as the day was slowly approaching noon. Meals prepared and consumed together, holding hands during Sunday's service and lazy time on the couch, stroking her face and brushing her long, beautiful hair. How wonderful ordinary days can be with her by my side. Heaven.

That time again

This time of year approaches again, the cringeworthy thoughts start to pop up in my head, I know I'll be solitary again this Christmas without The Dearest One by my side.
This year's Christmas gonna be so much different from what I got use to. It's so sad that what is suppose to be the merriest time of year always bring me down like nothing else in the world. This year was so difficult for me, so much has happened, so many good and uplifting things as well as some real, heartbreaking tragedies involving hurting some really kind people and having to live with it. This year after Christmas Supper at my sister's I'll be heading home to contemplate the silent sorrow in empty flat, visiting church at midnight followed by probably getting drunk in the company of just myself. How exciting is that? How can I be merry ? This year I realized how distant are the members of my family from one another, how we walk pass one another day after day, how indifferent we are toward one another, this too is so sad...but I guess it's always like that when faced "the model", you suddenly realize how cripple and pathetic the reality surrounding you is. My mind is filled with thoughts, most of them grim and obscured by sadness. How happy I am that somewhere there, there is a lady who cares and to whom I am not just a figure passing by, a lady who has just phoned me putting smile on my face and warmth in my heart. More to come...

JOHN LENNON 29 years ago today

JOHN LENNON

9 October 1940 – 8 December 1980

Always in my mind, always in my heart

I do

Feeling much better now, the tranquility is re-established despite the grim vision of being extremely busy today and tomorrow going through the university ordeal. Spent literally hours yesterday and today (very early in the morning) talking on the phone with my beloved C. she makes me feel so secure, strong and loved, being the only hideaway place when my mind is on the downward spiral, dugged in renouncement and despair. How I miss her no one is even close to understand, how I am desperate to be called "Honey Bunny" is beyond anyone's comprehension. How much I love her is even astonishing to me but I do. God knows I do.

Fed Up

I'm fucking sick of it all today,
fed up with:
indifference
stagnation
lack of understanding
expectations
loneliness
pathologically vile family
longing
studies
AZS
the void i'm in
waiting
...


I need some rest !!!
I need you C. !!!

This I Love

And now I don’t know why
She wouldn’t say goodbye
But then it seems that I
Had seen it in her eyes
And it might not be wise
I’d still have to try
With all the love I have inside
I can’t deny

I just can’t let it die
Cause her heart’s just like mine
And she holds her pain inside
So if you ask me why
She wouldn’t say goodbye
I know somewhere inside
There is a special light
Still shining bright
And even on the darkest night
She can’t deny

So if she’s somewhere near me
I hope to God she hears me
There’s no one else could ever make me feel
I’m so alive
I hoped she’d never leave me
Please God you must believe me
I’ve searched the universe and found myself
Within’ her eyes

No matter how I try
They say it’s all a lie
So what’s the use of my
Confessions to a crime
Of passions that won’t die
In my heart

And now I don’t know why
She wouldn’t say goodbye
It just might be that I
Had seen it in her eyes
And now it seems that I
Gave up my ghost of pride
I’ll never say goodbye

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Every time you're far away I'm panicking, feeling as if I was lost in darkness, feeling that I'm losing You and cannot do anything to make you stay... Don't go...Don't hate me, I'm not special like you. I'm tired and so alone...Life's too difficult and cruel without You holding my hand...

and i still believe

For the second time today you unexpectedly phoned me, putting smile on my face and excitement which I felt deep in my stomach, suddenly the whole world became a better place and the sun seemed to shine more brightly as you spoke those tender and full of caring words to me. I was absorbing every single one of them, every single sigh, every single laughter of yours. I never thought it would be possible to fall in love over and over again and I feel I do. I do fall in love with you all over again, exactly like year ago. And I still belive that Amor Vincit Omnia.

aches and sufferings

Terrible headache makes my life a drag during the last three days, body suffers so does the mind. Suspended in the void for almost two weeks now. My Dearest One's body suffers as well, stomach makes her days insufferable ones. Why do we have to be tormented and apart from each other when the only thing we dream of is being together like we know we can be, happy, calm and fulfilled. Miss You so much...

The Challenge

"When we least expect it, life sets us a challenge to test our courage and willingness to change; at such a moment, there is no point in pretending that nothing has happened or in saying that we are not ready. The challenge will not wait. Life does not look back. A week is more than enough time for us to decide whether or not to accept our destiny."

Paulo Coelho

Queen - Innuendo

Easily one of the most significant and groundshaking moments in the history of music.





While the sun hangs in the sky and the desert has sand
While the waves crash in the sea and meet the land
While there's a wind and the stars and the rainbow
'Till the mountains crumble into the plain

Oh yes we'll keep on trying'
Tread that fine line
Oh we'll keep on trying' yeah
Just passing' our time

While we live according to race, color or creed
While we rule by blind madness and pure greed
Our lives dictated by tradition, superstition, false religion
Through the eons, and on and on

Oh yes we'll keep on trying'
We'll tread that fine line
Oh oh we'll keep on trying'
'Till the end of time
'Till the end of time

Through the sorrow all through our splendor
Don't take offence at my innuendo

You can be anything you want to be
Just turn yourself into anything you think that you could ever be
Be free with your tempo be free be free
Surrender your ego be free be free to yourself

If there's a God or any kind of justice under the sky
If there's a point if there's a reason to live or die
If there's an answer to the questions we feel bound to ask
Show yourself - destroy our fears - release your mask

Oh yes we'll keep on trying
Hey tread that fine line
Yeah we'll keep on smiling yeah (yeah yeah)
And whatever will be will be
We'll keep on trying
We'll just keep on trying
'Till the end of time
'Till the end of time
'Till the end of time

How true is that !

"The essence of Christianity is told to us in the Garden of Eden history. The fruit that was forbidden was on the Tree of Knowledge. The subtext is, All the suffering you have is because you wanted to find out what was going on. You could be in the Garden of Eden if you had just kept your fucking mouth shut and hadn't asked any questions."

Frank Zappa Interviewed for Playboy Magazine , May 2, 1993

Freddie Mercury - I Remember

5 September 1946 – 24 November 1991

Puumaja - "Meriselityksia"

Yesterday upon my returning home after work I found the grey envelope with a stamp from Finland and inside the envelope, there was a newly released debut CD by my friend's, Mikko Merillainen, band Puumaja. I met Mikko back in the Spring of 2005 in Edinburgh and spent a great amount of time hanging around together discussing music, movies and male-female relations (that nasty, under-shower story was just insane). I was handed in a demo version of some of the tracks from "Meriselityksia" back in 2005 and now I am finally able to listen to their fully produced, often quite lavish versions and I am impressed. The album is so melodic, haunting and beautiful. Of course I've no idea what Mikko is singing about as it's all in Finnish but love it anyway. Thank you Mikko for such an nice and memorable gesture. "Meriselityksia" is going straight to my 2009 Top Albums list.

Little Light of Hope

Photo credit: Mario Alberto Magallanes Trejo - Saltillo, Coahuila, Mexico

Why does a musician start making music?

“Why does a musician start making music? He starts making music to share it with as many people as possible. If he has any other motive, then he’s not a musician, he’s an entertainer. If he wants to be a star and wants to make money, that’s not a musician.”

STEVEN WILSON

WITHER

"The thought of starting over
Leaves me paralysed"



...come back to me C. !!!

Ostrężyny

...

in your eyes

All my instincts, they return
and the grand facade, so soon will burn
without a noise, without my pride
I reach out from the inside

In your eyes
the light the heat
I am complete
in your eyes
I see the doorway to a thousand churches,
the resolution of all the fruitless searches
in your eyes
I see the light and the heat
I want to be that complete
I want to touch the light
the heat I see in your eyes

Love, I don't like to see so much pain
so much wasted and this moment keeps slipping away
I get so tired of working so hard for our survival
I look to the time with you to keep me awake and alive

"Maxwell's Silver Hammer" gorgeous animation

Browsing the net out of boredom the other day, I found thia miraculous animation created to illustrate The Beatles song "Maxwell's Silver Hammer" - it's absolutely gorgeous.

HARPER'S ISLAND

I spent few evenings watching CBS horror thriller/mystery show called HAPRER'S ISLAND having been encouraged by some good reviews praising show's climate and screenwriting. The show is definitely difficult to follow during the first few episodes as the tempo and action was rather slow. It got better with 4th or 5th episode when the characters were subjected to some really creepy and violent acts of terror. There were some truly breathtaking twists of action and the writing got better and better with every single episode. Again with the 10th episode or so the show both action- and writing-wise went downward and several times I was almost intimidated by the stupidity of some of the scenes included. All in all I wouldn't consider watching 13 episodes a waste of time as I was really looking forward to seeing who the murderer was and as it turned out the show ended up on a happy note but the amount of corpses left on the island is beyond belief. So go ahead, buy the officially released DVD or watch it here and you probably won't regret it.

"The Whirlwind" trailer

This here trailer of Transatlantic new effort "The Whirlwind" looks amazing and the only thing left is to be patient and wait for its' late October release.

OMG !!! How The Hell Is That Possible ???

Polish Prog Rock at its best - Quidam "Sanktuarium"

The incredible Polish band Quidam from way back in 90's during Baja Prog Rock Festival in Mexico with dreamlike Emilia Derkowska (Trzecia Godzina Dnia) on vocal.

Two Amazing Movies From Two Of My Favorite Directors Coming Soon

Here are the official trailers of two movies I'm dying to see during the next few months.

Tim Burton's ALICE IN WONDERLAND





and


Terry Gilliam's THE IMAGINARIUM OF DOCTOR PARNASSUS

GUITAR CIRCLE OF POLAND performance

An unexpected visit from my dear old friend Jacek last week resulted in an unforgettable evening spent in his flat among some of my friends I haven't seen for ages. But let's not get ahead of ourselves. Jacek for several years now is taking part in The League of Crafty Guitarists courses for young guitarists organised across Europe. He's a brilliant guitarist and I have had a privilege to listen to him practicing and playing always having goose bumps because of it. On his last visit to Tychy he and his three friends from the same guitar course decided to give a very intimate and private performance to a handful of his friends among whom was I and Caroline. We were invited to participate in this performance on Sunday, August 16th. I was thrilled to be able to talk to Magda, Lemur, Łysy and others as we haven't seen each other for quite some time by then. We sat on the sofas, floor, armchairs and so on and with only small light in the corner of the room the performance commenced with typical League number called Circulation I, four acoustic guitars playing complex, intricate and laborious compositions made a great impression on us - listeners and we enjoyed the concert a great deal. Among other compositions played that evening was boys' own piece of music called "Altana" as well as several other incantations of Circulation and another League number called "Asturias". It was magical, inspired and intriguing. Thank you Jacek and hopefully we'll be able to relive the experience someday in the future.

Zappa Plays Zappa Featuring Mike Portnoy - Beacon Theater, NYC 8/9/09

Zappa Plays Zappa joined by one of my favourite drummers of all time - Mike Portnoy several days ago during one of Progressive Nation dates in New York.

the one in which tjrael has become www.progarchives.com reviewer

To read my first progarchives.com review please click here

It's been six months

It's been six months of happiness
fulfillment
pride
joy
passion
sweet awaiting
appreciation
peace
security
and
love

the whole life's upon us

Thank you Honey

Porcupine Tree - Way out of Here

The video is dedicated to Arielle Daniel, a girl who was killed by a train in November 12, 2005, at the age of seventeen, together with a friend of her, Heather Bates, who was fourteen years old. Arielle was a big Porcupine Tree fan who founded the band’s MySpace Group. The accident occurred when the girls were taking photos on the rails. Both were from Oak Creek, Wisconsin.

Out at the train tracks
I dream of escape
But a song comes onto my iPod
And I realize it's getting late

I can't take the staring
And the sympathy
And I don't like the questions,
"How do you feel?
How's it going in school?
Do you want to talk about it?"

Way out, way out of here
Fade out, fade out, vanish

And I'm trying to forget you
And I know that I will
In a thousand years
Or maybe a week

Burn all your pictures
Cut out your face
The shutters are down
And the curtains are closed
And I've covered my tracks
Disposed of the car

And I'm trying to forget
Even your name
And the way that you look
When you're sleeping, dreaming of this...

Way out, way out of here
Fade out, fade out, vanish

Kuroshio Sea - 2nd largest aquarium tank in the world

Kuroshio Sea - 2nd largest aquarium tank in the world - (song is Please don't go by Barcelona) from Jon Rawlinson on Vimeo.

XI. RECEIVE

Help me be a channel of Thy peace

That where there is hatred, I may bring love

That where there is wrong, I may bring the spirit of forgiveness

That where there is discord, I may bring harmony

That where there is error, I may bring truth

That where there is doubt, I may bring faith

That where there is despair, I may bring hope

That where there is shadow, I may bring light

That where there is sadness, I may bring joy

That I may seek rather to comfort, than to be comforted

That I may seek to understand, rather than to be understood

That I may seek to love, rather than to be loved,

for it is by self-forgetting that one finds,

it is by forgiving that one is forgiven

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Everyone's out there having fun

And I feel so fuckin' lonely

God damn it !!!

distaste

I was just told the news
which left me with the sense of distaste
sorrow
disappointment
cruel realization
feels like the final (infected) cut
between the past and present

we are all responsible for the choices we make
regardless of consequences

Coraline

Watched this really beautifully produced animation last night and enjoyed it immensely. It was like Tim Burton meets Les Triplettes de Belleville and the music frame fits the movie perfectly giving up on typical, expressionless orchestration and presenting us with some good sounding original music by They Might Be Giants and Bruno Coulais. Finally I consider it to be an educational production which teaches ungrateful children to respect and appreciate their very own parents no matter how boring or bad tempered they tend to be sometimes.

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"The great unknown that lies beyond the horizon of expectation is both frightening and exhilarating."

Buckethead. The Homing Beacon/The Landing Beacon: a song for Michael Jackson

premature death

So I had this great little idea just couple minutes ago. It dawned on me while in the bathtub, the one that would make THE VERY IMPORTANT PERSON happy and thrilled, I got excited, like a little child. And just as this idea started to unravel I realized it wouldn't be as easy as I thought it would be and probably would place THE VERY IMPORTANT PERSON in a troublesome situation to which (yet) there is no easy solution. So sorrowful I gave up on this idea, hoping that it would be possible to make it happen in the future. Really counting on it. And who says I'm not an spontaneous person? Hell I am !!!
JUST LET ME PROVE IT !!!

On a light note

Isn't he just as we - the men ?

I mean me - myself ?

:D

the view

Inverleith House presents a programme of temporary exhibitions of the highest quality; bringing internationally-based artists and their work to Scotland and exhibiting work by artists based in Scotland, on an international stage.

Back in 2005 I spent countless hours sitting, lying and sunbathing on benches and lovely grass by Inverleith House cherishing every moment of my living in Edinburgh, Looking back I think it was The Happiest Time Of My Life. The thought's both uplifting and sad, the sudden realization, as if life wasn't keeping anything in store for me anymore (which I know is not true - especially now) but nonetheless memories of Edinburgh make me sad and make me wonder will I ever be as fulfilled as then, when I was in my mid twenties? Why does the time got to fly so rapidly ? ? ?

Come back to me...

Childhood's End - Michael Jackson

August 29, 1958 – June 25, 2009

Thank You

New Porcupine Tree album - The Incident

the most beautiful girl in the world

My Pride

Mike Patton and Metropole Orchestra - Urlo Negro

Can't stop listening to this :

synecdoche

Everything is more
complicated than you think.
You only see a tenth
of what is true.
There are a million
little strings
attached to every
choice you make.
You can destroy your life
every time you choose.
But maybe you won't know
for 20 years
and you may never,
ever trace it to its source.
And you only get one
chance to play it out.
Just try and figure
out your own divorce.
And they say there is no fate,
but there is,
it's what you create.
And even though the world goes
on for eons and eons
you are only here for a fraction
of a fraction of a second.
Most of your time is spent being
dead or not yet born.
But while alive,
you wait in vain
wasting years
for a phone call
or a letter or a look
from someone or something
to make it all right.
And it never comes,
or it seems to,
but it doesn't really.
So you spend your time
in vague regret
or vaguer hope that something
good will come along.
Something to make
you feel connected.
Something to make
you feel whole.
Something to make
you feel loved.
And the truth is
I feel so angry.
And the truth is
I feel so fucking sad.
And the truth is,
I've felt so fucking hurt
for so fucking long.
And for just as long,
I've been pretending I'm okay
just to get along,
just for--
I don't know why.
Maybe because no one wants
to hear about my misery
because they have their own.
Well, fuck everybody.
Amen.

unbearable longing

I'm longing to hold you back in my arms and listen to your soothing voice, touching your soft hair and feeling the fullness again.
Nothing is right when you're far away and I don't want to go on like this.
I need you...

(Re)discovering MIKE PATTON

Just out of curiousity I decided to watch the live stream of Faith No More's reunion gig at Download Festival 2009 as I feel sentimental about this band remebering it from my earl teens in 1990's. I was absolutely stunned by FNM's singer Mike Patton last night, this guy is a fuckin' genius. Of course I have always been aware of the wide spectrum of Patton's musical excursions with acts such as Mr.Bungle, Fantomas or his collaboration with John Zorn but never before have I seen him live performing his eerie, flamboyant and quirky vocal tour-de-force. That was just amazing and I can't stop listening to Patton's music since. Once again, an ultimate musical genius discovered by chance. I love those moments of exciting discoveries.

Here's the sample of Mike's vocal genius

SOLA SCRIPTURA

Sola scriptura (Latin ablative, "by scripture alone") is the doctrine that the Bible is the only infallible or inerrant authority for Christian faith, and that it contains all knowledge necessary for salvation and holiness. Consequently, Sola Scriptura demands that no doctrine is to be admitted or confessed that is not found directly or logically within Scripture. However, Sola Scriptura is not a denial of other authorities governing Christian life and devotion. Rather, it simply demands that all other authorities are subordinate to, and are to be corrected by, the written word of God. Sola scriptura was a foundational doctrinal principle of the Protestant Reformation held by the Reformers and is a formal principle of Protestantism today

NEAL MORSE - Sola Scriptura

THE DOOR

I - Introduction (instrumental)

II - In the name of God

Giving up the time we've got to live the life completely
Giving over to the lust that rageous in the mind
The Captain fills his place with gold while all the ship is sinking
Calls himself the Bishop-Prince and blood's his favorite wine

Gardens grow as people know and sense the smell of slaughter
Every soul in Saxon senses something's gone awry
The woman's in the wilderness - the beast has nearly got her
Men sorround the Bishop-Prince and sing their bloody cry

In the name of God you must die
All that's not our truth is a lie
In the name of God you must die
In the name of God you must die
If you want some teeth just ask why
In the name of God you must die

The pearl is trodden underfoot into the muck and mire
We'll take the Roman Gods except the names will all be changed
The woman's fed by ravens and her feet are in the fire
Cold and bare she's holding there 1260 days

In the name of God you must die
All that's not our truth is a lie
In the name of God you must die
In the name of God you must die
We won't let a sleeping dog lie
In the name of God you must die

And the Captain calls
If they won't pay they're soon be scratching the dungeon walls
From the highest height to the tenement halls - it's true
Look out we're coming for you

In the name of God you must die
In the name of God you must die

III - All I ask for

Free me - know me
Only you can make the morning mine
Lowly - humbly
As the sunlight lights the way

This is all I asked for
This is all I wanted to do
Is to live with you forever
And feel the beauty of your truth
This is all I asked for
To live a life that's pleasing to you
And be there ever after
You know my heart: you know it's true

Bravely, strongly - You have left the veil of death behind
Something drawing me out into your way

This is all I asked for
This is all I wanted to do
Is to live with you forever
And feel the beauty of your truth
This is all I asked for
To live a life that's pleasing to you
And to be there ever after
You know my heart: you know it's truth

All I want is you

Oh God I seek the glory that's from you and from you only
Oh God I seek the glory that's from you
I seek your light through the veil of life
Please come and make me holy
Oh God I seek the glory that's from you
(This is all I ask for)
Oh God I seek the glory that's from you
(To live a life that's pleasing to you)
Oh God I seek the glory that's from you
Only you

IV - Mercy for sale

In the name of God you must pay your penance
If you don't well that's a crime
If you want to buy your way to Heaven
We'll indulge you every time
Would you like to come?
We'll eat in secret
My water's stolen but it's fine
If you want know much more about me
Take a look in Proverbs 9

Mercy, mercy we're selling mercy
We are Christ and we'll bless you well
People crying Lord have mercy
But they've gone in through the gates of hell
It's true, look out we're comin' for you!

If you think the whore is only history
Are there those who teach her lies?
Wherever they believe what came out from her
That same spirit is still alive

Mercy, mercy we're selling mercy
We are Christ and we'll bless you well
People crying Lord have mercy
But they've gone in through the gates of hell
It's true, look out we're coming for you!

V - Keep silent

How can I keep silent when I know the truth?
How can I stand idly by with the previleged few?
There's criminals in power; the keepers of the lie
They say you've got salvation when they know you're gonna die

I don't wanna be the one to bring the curtain down
I'd much rather stay at home and keep what I have found
But Jesus didn't call me to do what I would do
So how can I keep silent when I know the truth?

What is it that binds me? What can keep me down?
And in my very heart of hearts who shall wear the crown?
But as I read and as I bleed, oh, my heart is fixed
And if I follow blind men, well, we'll all fall in the ditch

I don't wanna be the one to bring the curtain down
I'd much rather stay at home and keep what I have found
But Jesus didn't call me to do what I would do
So how can I keep silent when I know the truth?

Oh Lord I can't justify what the ones above me do
Oh Lord I can testify nothing more or less will do
And I'll be your witness in the wild
The dragons stands in front of me
The virgins been defiled, Oh God...

How can I keep silent when I know the truth?
I ask myself one question: What will Jesus do?

I don't wanna be the one to bring the curtain down
I'd much rather stay at home and keep what I have found
But Jesus didn't call me to do what I would do
So how can I keep silent when I know the truth?

VI - Upon the door

Sometimes comes a moment when there is no escape
A man by candlelight reads: "The just shall live by faith"
And a rushing ray of light comes and hits him at the core
I will write my words upon the door

History is hinged on him playing of the role
The dawn was coming after the dark night of the soul
The simple act has changed our world forever more
I will write my words upon the door
I will write my words upon the door

Martin saw the jailer with the woman in her bed
With simple words of life he struck the seventh head
The witness stands before the dragon and the whore
I will write my words upon the door
I will write my words upon the door




THE CONFLICT

I - Do you know my name

God took the Promised Land and put it in my bloodstained hand
I can sell you grace for your soul or you'll burn in hell far below

I'm your priest, I'm your king, I'm a Saint
This love your enemies thing's down the drain
Tell me, do you know my name?

Look I got two big horns like a lamb
Even though Peter was married I can't
Look I've got great big armie like a General
I may have a mistress but at least I'm a hetero

I'm your priest, I'm your king, I'm a Saint
This love your enemies thing's down the drain
Tell me, do you know my name?
Tell me, do you know my name?
Tell me, do you know my name?
My name...Tell me...

II - Party to the lie

Who is this who challenges the ruling of the crown?
Father we must crush him and he never will be found

We must find a way, the man will surely pay
And when there's nothing left to try...
He must take it back, this is the only way
We can't be party to the lie
Party to the lie

Something burns inside of me that you don't understand
I'm under the authority of God and not of man

God will make away. He will decide my fate
And whether or not I live or die
I won't take it back, this is the only way
I can't be party to the lie
Party to the lie

God will make away. He will decide my fate
And whether or not I live or die
I won't take it back, this is the only way
I won't be party to the lie
Party to the lie

III - Underground

Sun turns as black as the day
Night turns a cold steel gray
I want to stay
Where the sun cannot be found

Friends cover me in the night
In a castle of warm colored light
Here I will stay tucked away
I'm underground

I thought I was coming to die
And that's what tey're thinking outside
But I will stay lost
'Til it's safer to be found

Writing the book in the day
In words that my people can say
Here I will stay tucked away
I'm underground

IV - Two down, one to go

The woman's found a place to go
Where she's gone to nobody know
But Martin's words are like wild fire
Spreading fast as pine on the pyre
Two down, one to go

Columbo sailed in '92
Guttenberg did his thing too
And Calvin came on right away
The human clock reads a whole nother day
Two down, one to go

The woman fled into the dark
From the darkness of man's heart
But she's coming from her hideaway
And I believe she still is today
Two down, one to go
Two down, one to go
Two down, one to go

V - Vineyard

A wild boar has entered in the vineyard
We'll burn his books and skin him alive
And we'll do him like all the rest
He never more will rise

You are Babylon the destroyer
You destroyed the truth with all of your lies
And will go down to the grave
And never more will rise

A wild boar has entered in the vineyard
We'll burn his books and skin him alive
And we'll do him like all the rest
He never more will rise

VI - Already home

I stand accused I'm beaten used and tired
They took on my words and threw them in the fire
As they cast me down there's something found within me
They can grind me to dust but life is just beginning

There is a truth that I'm feeling: love full of healing
Somewhere I've never known
As I surrender completely: pure and it's easy
Like I'm already home
I'm already home

Take me away I want to stay by the water
If I pass on won't you tell my sons and daughters
When I am gone you all must go on believing
Lay down you life 'cause love is what gives it meaning

There is a truth that I'm feeling: love full of healing
Somewhere I've never known
As I surrender completely: pure and it's easy
Like I'm already home
There is a place full of knowing: like it was snowing
Waking me up at last
And as the pages keep turning: yielded and yearning
Washing away the past

There is a truth that I'm feeling: love full of healing
Somewhere I've never known (Already home)
As I surrender completely: pure and it's easy
Like I'm already home (I'm already home)
There is a place full of knowing: like it was snowing
Waking me up at last (Already home)
And as the pages keep turning: yielded and yearning
Washing away the past(I'm already home)

Oh God
I seek the glory that's from you and from you only
Oh God
I seek the glory that's from you
I'm already home...




THE CONCLUSION

I- Randy's jam (Instrumental)

II - Long nights journey

Come out of her my people...

I saw the light of a thousand angels taking it on the chin
I saw a hundred demons raging suffering blights upon there skin
Just as the woman lay deep in quicksand ready to take the dive
I saw some men with tatooed foreheads
I saw them laying down their lives

But before she dessapeared I heard them cry
They set her on a wing bound for the sky

It was a long night's journey
A long night's journey into day
Such a long night's journey
A long night's journey into day

I saw an angel come down from heaven glorious as the sky
Crying that ' Babylon has fallen and every nation has drunk her wine'
My children will not be stooped within her tricked by her sorcery
It's time to come out of her my pople
It's time to set the captives free"

And then I saw a woman bright and clear
The marriage of the Lamb is almost here

It was a long night's journey
A long night's journey into day
Such a long night's journey
A long night's journey into day

III - Re-introduction (Instrumental)

IV- Come out of her

Giving up the life we had now Jesus is around us
Filled up with the Holy Ghost we're ready now to fly
But spiritual captivity it still is all around us
I believe the time has come to stand up and to cry

Come out her - There's a place where your spirit can fly
Come out of her
MY PEOPLE!

Not just from the Mother but the daughters of the harlot
Everything that comes from her it must be left behind
Her rituals and teaching smells of death and bloody scarlet
Like Martin did before us let the scripture be our guide

Come out of her - There's a place where your spirit can fly
Come out of her my people
Come out of her - The angel was suddenly cry
Come out of her my people
MY PEOPLE!

V - Clothed with the sun

Bravely, strongly
Watch the woman step into the light
Gleaming, leaning
On the arms of the one she loves

This is all I ask for, this is all I've wanted to do
Is to live with you forever
And feel the beauty of your truth
This is all I ask for
To live a life that's pleasing to you
And to be there ever after
You know my heart you know it's true

She's clothed with the sun
My beloved is only one
And her glory has just begun
Can you see her with you eyes?

She's prepared herself just for him
(By the grace of God she's alive!)
She has overcome all her sin
(By the grace of God she's alive!)
Let the day of lamb begin
(By the grace of God she's alive!)
Can you see her glory rise?

VI - Closing

God can change the world with just one willing soul
Who will stand up for the truth and give him starring role
So come into the fullness and open up the door
Maybe it is you he's looking for
Maybe it is you he's looking for...

The one in which tjrael has become an uncle

Emily

On the first day of June my sister Ania gave birth to her firstborn child, a pretty little angel by the name of Emilia. A tiny (51cm) black, long-haired princess is beautiful, touching and absolutely adorable. I visited my sister in the hospital the morning after the childbirth and I was it was really amazing to see this wee child lying there with swollen eyelids and calm face expression, full of peace and trust. I felt such a strong bond with her the moment I first looked at her and I think to myself what will I feel when my own child come to this world? It’s inconceivable to me at this point but I know it’ll be just stunning. Let’s wait and find out.

The End Of College

Today was the day of my defence of Bachelor's Degree. I need to admit that my friends who were defending their B.A.'s were really stressed out and I just couldn't understand why I was so calm and relaxed. That's very not like me at all. Everything went smoothly and painlessly, I received the highest of possible marks what made me feel quite uncomfortable since I don't think I did that amazingly well, but hey, who am I to argue with the panel of experts' opinion. 6 is goos so I'll shut my festering gob.

I'm tempted to write more about this slowly passing day but I'll refrain from it hopefully keeping you on the edge of your sit.

Tomorrow college gang meets up in the capital of Silesia - Rybnik tyo celebrate the end of college days and just hang around drinking, talking and chilling out. I'm looking forward to it especially beacuse I'm going to be there with my pretty little C.

Zappa Plays Zappa, Warsaw, Stodoła Club, June 3rd 2009

" INCA ROADS" as performed two weeks before Warsaw gig in Paris, Olympia

"This is it ! This is The Big One" quoting Frank Zappa, that's what I thought standing in front of Warsaw's Stodoła Club on a windy, yet sunny third day of June impatiently waiting for the only Polish Zappa Plays Zappa concert. I was familiarized with previous ZPZ incarnation and I knew more less what to expect from this gig. I was not disappointed, well how could I be if the concert consisted in 100% of ZPZ leader's father music? It was my first vivit to Stodoła and I have to say that I was really pleased with both the club's atmosphere and the acoustic of the place. The club was full of real individuals of various age and I really mean various age ranging from 9 to I don't know, 70? The band showed up on stage at 8:30 PM sharp and kicked off with emotional version of one of Frank's regular concert starters Black Napkins. Shivers, shivers, shivers all across my body. This night's setlist consisted of all manner of song from different decades of Frank's career, we even got the nice rendition of Synclavier-composed G-Spot Tornado. I was impressed by beautiful and really freak-out sax solos played by Scheila Gonzalez and the new vocalist Bob Thomas. At one moment I literally started crying when unexpectedly in the middle of Inca Roads Scheila started playing wonderful, really touching solo, I was in the empyrean that very moment. The whole concert was filled with amazing musicianship and some crazy, flamboyant solos (especially in Pound For A Brown On The Bus). As an encore the band performed among others one of the first Zappa compositions I've heard in my life, namely Willie The Pimp with a real dynamic guitar solo. The house light went on at precisely 22:30 PM and for next several quarters Dweezil and his band members were signing cover sleeves, tickets and whatever people approached them with. I had the opportunity to talk to Dweezil for a minute and thanked him for what he's doing in the remembrance of his late father. That was a truly magical evening and as close as possible to indescribable Frank Zappa concert phenomenon. Here I'd like to thank my dearest C. for making this evening possible and for being around me that day, also big thank yous to my beloved friend Asia for entertaining us and putting us up that night. Big kudos to both of you.

Home - a documentary by Yann Arthus-Bertrand.

Home is a documentary by Yann Arthus-Bertrand. The film is entirely composed of aerial shots of various places around Earth. It shows the diversity of life on Earth and how humanity is threatening the ecological balance of the planet. The movie was released simultaneously on June 5th in cinemas all over the world, on DVD, TV and on YouTube. Released on the same date in 50 countries is a world record for any film release in history. The film is 100% free, and no profits will be made from its release or future showings.



For the whole movie in HD online go here

the muse asks not for the right time

- i feel blessed

- i feel proud

- i feel secure

- i feel fine

- i feel in love

- slightly afraid

- i know it'll be fine

- cause i'm with thee

- and you love me

- no matter what

- we will be free

- my tired brain

- is filled with thoughts

- that soon, one day

- i'll untie those knots

- we'll be in peace

- gone will be fears

- and you'll be there

- to watch me stare

- at your soft cheeks

- and we'll be one

40 years ago

"Give Peace a Chance" was recorded on 1 June 1969 in Room 1742 at the Queen Elizabeth Hotel in Montreal, Canada. The recording session was attended by dozens of journalists and various celebrities, including Timothy Leary, Rabbi Abraham Feinberg, Joseph Schwartz, Allan Rock, Rosemary Woodruff Leary, Petula Clark, Dick Gregory, Allen Ginsberg, Murray the K, Al Capp and Derek Taylor, many of whom are mentioned in the lyrics. Lennon played acoustic guitar and was joined by Tommy Smothers of the Smothers Brothers, also on acoustic guitar.