Childhood's End - Michael Jackson

August 29, 1958 – June 25, 2009

Thank You

New Porcupine Tree album - The Incident

the most beautiful girl in the world

My Pride

Mike Patton and Metropole Orchestra - Urlo Negro

Can't stop listening to this :

synecdoche

Everything is more
complicated than you think.
You only see a tenth
of what is true.
There are a million
little strings
attached to every
choice you make.
You can destroy your life
every time you choose.
But maybe you won't know
for 20 years
and you may never,
ever trace it to its source.
And you only get one
chance to play it out.
Just try and figure
out your own divorce.
And they say there is no fate,
but there is,
it's what you create.
And even though the world goes
on for eons and eons
you are only here for a fraction
of a fraction of a second.
Most of your time is spent being
dead or not yet born.
But while alive,
you wait in vain
wasting years
for a phone call
or a letter or a look
from someone or something
to make it all right.
And it never comes,
or it seems to,
but it doesn't really.
So you spend your time
in vague regret
or vaguer hope that something
good will come along.
Something to make
you feel connected.
Something to make
you feel whole.
Something to make
you feel loved.
And the truth is
I feel so angry.
And the truth is
I feel so fucking sad.
And the truth is,
I've felt so fucking hurt
for so fucking long.
And for just as long,
I've been pretending I'm okay
just to get along,
just for--
I don't know why.
Maybe because no one wants
to hear about my misery
because they have their own.
Well, fuck everybody.
Amen.

unbearable longing

I'm longing to hold you back in my arms and listen to your soothing voice, touching your soft hair and feeling the fullness again.
Nothing is right when you're far away and I don't want to go on like this.
I need you...

(Re)discovering MIKE PATTON

Just out of curiousity I decided to watch the live stream of Faith No More's reunion gig at Download Festival 2009 as I feel sentimental about this band remebering it from my earl teens in 1990's. I was absolutely stunned by FNM's singer Mike Patton last night, this guy is a fuckin' genius. Of course I have always been aware of the wide spectrum of Patton's musical excursions with acts such as Mr.Bungle, Fantomas or his collaboration with John Zorn but never before have I seen him live performing his eerie, flamboyant and quirky vocal tour-de-force. That was just amazing and I can't stop listening to Patton's music since. Once again, an ultimate musical genius discovered by chance. I love those moments of exciting discoveries.

Here's the sample of Mike's vocal genius

SOLA SCRIPTURA

Sola scriptura (Latin ablative, "by scripture alone") is the doctrine that the Bible is the only infallible or inerrant authority for Christian faith, and that it contains all knowledge necessary for salvation and holiness. Consequently, Sola Scriptura demands that no doctrine is to be admitted or confessed that is not found directly or logically within Scripture. However, Sola Scriptura is not a denial of other authorities governing Christian life and devotion. Rather, it simply demands that all other authorities are subordinate to, and are to be corrected by, the written word of God. Sola scriptura was a foundational doctrinal principle of the Protestant Reformation held by the Reformers and is a formal principle of Protestantism today

NEAL MORSE - Sola Scriptura

THE DOOR

I - Introduction (instrumental)

II - In the name of God

Giving up the time we've got to live the life completely
Giving over to the lust that rageous in the mind
The Captain fills his place with gold while all the ship is sinking
Calls himself the Bishop-Prince and blood's his favorite wine

Gardens grow as people know and sense the smell of slaughter
Every soul in Saxon senses something's gone awry
The woman's in the wilderness - the beast has nearly got her
Men sorround the Bishop-Prince and sing their bloody cry

In the name of God you must die
All that's not our truth is a lie
In the name of God you must die
In the name of God you must die
If you want some teeth just ask why
In the name of God you must die

The pearl is trodden underfoot into the muck and mire
We'll take the Roman Gods except the names will all be changed
The woman's fed by ravens and her feet are in the fire
Cold and bare she's holding there 1260 days

In the name of God you must die
All that's not our truth is a lie
In the name of God you must die
In the name of God you must die
We won't let a sleeping dog lie
In the name of God you must die

And the Captain calls
If they won't pay they're soon be scratching the dungeon walls
From the highest height to the tenement halls - it's true
Look out we're coming for you

In the name of God you must die
In the name of God you must die

III - All I ask for

Free me - know me
Only you can make the morning mine
Lowly - humbly
As the sunlight lights the way

This is all I asked for
This is all I wanted to do
Is to live with you forever
And feel the beauty of your truth
This is all I asked for
To live a life that's pleasing to you
And be there ever after
You know my heart: you know it's true

Bravely, strongly - You have left the veil of death behind
Something drawing me out into your way

This is all I asked for
This is all I wanted to do
Is to live with you forever
And feel the beauty of your truth
This is all I asked for
To live a life that's pleasing to you
And to be there ever after
You know my heart: you know it's truth

All I want is you

Oh God I seek the glory that's from you and from you only
Oh God I seek the glory that's from you
I seek your light through the veil of life
Please come and make me holy
Oh God I seek the glory that's from you
(This is all I ask for)
Oh God I seek the glory that's from you
(To live a life that's pleasing to you)
Oh God I seek the glory that's from you
Only you

IV - Mercy for sale

In the name of God you must pay your penance
If you don't well that's a crime
If you want to buy your way to Heaven
We'll indulge you every time
Would you like to come?
We'll eat in secret
My water's stolen but it's fine
If you want know much more about me
Take a look in Proverbs 9

Mercy, mercy we're selling mercy
We are Christ and we'll bless you well
People crying Lord have mercy
But they've gone in through the gates of hell
It's true, look out we're comin' for you!

If you think the whore is only history
Are there those who teach her lies?
Wherever they believe what came out from her
That same spirit is still alive

Mercy, mercy we're selling mercy
We are Christ and we'll bless you well
People crying Lord have mercy
But they've gone in through the gates of hell
It's true, look out we're coming for you!

V - Keep silent

How can I keep silent when I know the truth?
How can I stand idly by with the previleged few?
There's criminals in power; the keepers of the lie
They say you've got salvation when they know you're gonna die

I don't wanna be the one to bring the curtain down
I'd much rather stay at home and keep what I have found
But Jesus didn't call me to do what I would do
So how can I keep silent when I know the truth?

What is it that binds me? What can keep me down?
And in my very heart of hearts who shall wear the crown?
But as I read and as I bleed, oh, my heart is fixed
And if I follow blind men, well, we'll all fall in the ditch

I don't wanna be the one to bring the curtain down
I'd much rather stay at home and keep what I have found
But Jesus didn't call me to do what I would do
So how can I keep silent when I know the truth?

Oh Lord I can't justify what the ones above me do
Oh Lord I can testify nothing more or less will do
And I'll be your witness in the wild
The dragons stands in front of me
The virgins been defiled, Oh God...

How can I keep silent when I know the truth?
I ask myself one question: What will Jesus do?

I don't wanna be the one to bring the curtain down
I'd much rather stay at home and keep what I have found
But Jesus didn't call me to do what I would do
So how can I keep silent when I know the truth?

VI - Upon the door

Sometimes comes a moment when there is no escape
A man by candlelight reads: "The just shall live by faith"
And a rushing ray of light comes and hits him at the core
I will write my words upon the door

History is hinged on him playing of the role
The dawn was coming after the dark night of the soul
The simple act has changed our world forever more
I will write my words upon the door
I will write my words upon the door

Martin saw the jailer with the woman in her bed
With simple words of life he struck the seventh head
The witness stands before the dragon and the whore
I will write my words upon the door
I will write my words upon the door




THE CONFLICT

I - Do you know my name

God took the Promised Land and put it in my bloodstained hand
I can sell you grace for your soul or you'll burn in hell far below

I'm your priest, I'm your king, I'm a Saint
This love your enemies thing's down the drain
Tell me, do you know my name?

Look I got two big horns like a lamb
Even though Peter was married I can't
Look I've got great big armie like a General
I may have a mistress but at least I'm a hetero

I'm your priest, I'm your king, I'm a Saint
This love your enemies thing's down the drain
Tell me, do you know my name?
Tell me, do you know my name?
Tell me, do you know my name?
My name...Tell me...

II - Party to the lie

Who is this who challenges the ruling of the crown?
Father we must crush him and he never will be found

We must find a way, the man will surely pay
And when there's nothing left to try...
He must take it back, this is the only way
We can't be party to the lie
Party to the lie

Something burns inside of me that you don't understand
I'm under the authority of God and not of man

God will make away. He will decide my fate
And whether or not I live or die
I won't take it back, this is the only way
I can't be party to the lie
Party to the lie

God will make away. He will decide my fate
And whether or not I live or die
I won't take it back, this is the only way
I won't be party to the lie
Party to the lie

III - Underground

Sun turns as black as the day
Night turns a cold steel gray
I want to stay
Where the sun cannot be found

Friends cover me in the night
In a castle of warm colored light
Here I will stay tucked away
I'm underground

I thought I was coming to die
And that's what tey're thinking outside
But I will stay lost
'Til it's safer to be found

Writing the book in the day
In words that my people can say
Here I will stay tucked away
I'm underground

IV - Two down, one to go

The woman's found a place to go
Where she's gone to nobody know
But Martin's words are like wild fire
Spreading fast as pine on the pyre
Two down, one to go

Columbo sailed in '92
Guttenberg did his thing too
And Calvin came on right away
The human clock reads a whole nother day
Two down, one to go

The woman fled into the dark
From the darkness of man's heart
But she's coming from her hideaway
And I believe she still is today
Two down, one to go
Two down, one to go
Two down, one to go

V - Vineyard

A wild boar has entered in the vineyard
We'll burn his books and skin him alive
And we'll do him like all the rest
He never more will rise

You are Babylon the destroyer
You destroyed the truth with all of your lies
And will go down to the grave
And never more will rise

A wild boar has entered in the vineyard
We'll burn his books and skin him alive
And we'll do him like all the rest
He never more will rise

VI - Already home

I stand accused I'm beaten used and tired
They took on my words and threw them in the fire
As they cast me down there's something found within me
They can grind me to dust but life is just beginning

There is a truth that I'm feeling: love full of healing
Somewhere I've never known
As I surrender completely: pure and it's easy
Like I'm already home
I'm already home

Take me away I want to stay by the water
If I pass on won't you tell my sons and daughters
When I am gone you all must go on believing
Lay down you life 'cause love is what gives it meaning

There is a truth that I'm feeling: love full of healing
Somewhere I've never known
As I surrender completely: pure and it's easy
Like I'm already home
There is a place full of knowing: like it was snowing
Waking me up at last
And as the pages keep turning: yielded and yearning
Washing away the past

There is a truth that I'm feeling: love full of healing
Somewhere I've never known (Already home)
As I surrender completely: pure and it's easy
Like I'm already home (I'm already home)
There is a place full of knowing: like it was snowing
Waking me up at last (Already home)
And as the pages keep turning: yielded and yearning
Washing away the past(I'm already home)

Oh God
I seek the glory that's from you and from you only
Oh God
I seek the glory that's from you
I'm already home...




THE CONCLUSION

I- Randy's jam (Instrumental)

II - Long nights journey

Come out of her my people...

I saw the light of a thousand angels taking it on the chin
I saw a hundred demons raging suffering blights upon there skin
Just as the woman lay deep in quicksand ready to take the dive
I saw some men with tatooed foreheads
I saw them laying down their lives

But before she dessapeared I heard them cry
They set her on a wing bound for the sky

It was a long night's journey
A long night's journey into day
Such a long night's journey
A long night's journey into day

I saw an angel come down from heaven glorious as the sky
Crying that ' Babylon has fallen and every nation has drunk her wine'
My children will not be stooped within her tricked by her sorcery
It's time to come out of her my pople
It's time to set the captives free"

And then I saw a woman bright and clear
The marriage of the Lamb is almost here

It was a long night's journey
A long night's journey into day
Such a long night's journey
A long night's journey into day

III - Re-introduction (Instrumental)

IV- Come out of her

Giving up the life we had now Jesus is around us
Filled up with the Holy Ghost we're ready now to fly
But spiritual captivity it still is all around us
I believe the time has come to stand up and to cry

Come out her - There's a place where your spirit can fly
Come out of her
MY PEOPLE!

Not just from the Mother but the daughters of the harlot
Everything that comes from her it must be left behind
Her rituals and teaching smells of death and bloody scarlet
Like Martin did before us let the scripture be our guide

Come out of her - There's a place where your spirit can fly
Come out of her my people
Come out of her - The angel was suddenly cry
Come out of her my people
MY PEOPLE!

V - Clothed with the sun

Bravely, strongly
Watch the woman step into the light
Gleaming, leaning
On the arms of the one she loves

This is all I ask for, this is all I've wanted to do
Is to live with you forever
And feel the beauty of your truth
This is all I ask for
To live a life that's pleasing to you
And to be there ever after
You know my heart you know it's true

She's clothed with the sun
My beloved is only one
And her glory has just begun
Can you see her with you eyes?

She's prepared herself just for him
(By the grace of God she's alive!)
She has overcome all her sin
(By the grace of God she's alive!)
Let the day of lamb begin
(By the grace of God she's alive!)
Can you see her glory rise?

VI - Closing

God can change the world with just one willing soul
Who will stand up for the truth and give him starring role
So come into the fullness and open up the door
Maybe it is you he's looking for
Maybe it is you he's looking for...

The one in which tjrael has become an uncle

Emily

On the first day of June my sister Ania gave birth to her firstborn child, a pretty little angel by the name of Emilia. A tiny (51cm) black, long-haired princess is beautiful, touching and absolutely adorable. I visited my sister in the hospital the morning after the childbirth and I was it was really amazing to see this wee child lying there with swollen eyelids and calm face expression, full of peace and trust. I felt such a strong bond with her the moment I first looked at her and I think to myself what will I feel when my own child come to this world? It’s inconceivable to me at this point but I know it’ll be just stunning. Let’s wait and find out.

The End Of College

Today was the day of my defence of Bachelor's Degree. I need to admit that my friends who were defending their B.A.'s were really stressed out and I just couldn't understand why I was so calm and relaxed. That's very not like me at all. Everything went smoothly and painlessly, I received the highest of possible marks what made me feel quite uncomfortable since I don't think I did that amazingly well, but hey, who am I to argue with the panel of experts' opinion. 6 is goos so I'll shut my festering gob.

I'm tempted to write more about this slowly passing day but I'll refrain from it hopefully keeping you on the edge of your sit.

Tomorrow college gang meets up in the capital of Silesia - Rybnik tyo celebrate the end of college days and just hang around drinking, talking and chilling out. I'm looking forward to it especially beacuse I'm going to be there with my pretty little C.

Zappa Plays Zappa, Warsaw, Stodoła Club, June 3rd 2009

" INCA ROADS" as performed two weeks before Warsaw gig in Paris, Olympia

"This is it ! This is The Big One" quoting Frank Zappa, that's what I thought standing in front of Warsaw's Stodoła Club on a windy, yet sunny third day of June impatiently waiting for the only Polish Zappa Plays Zappa concert. I was familiarized with previous ZPZ incarnation and I knew more less what to expect from this gig. I was not disappointed, well how could I be if the concert consisted in 100% of ZPZ leader's father music? It was my first vivit to Stodoła and I have to say that I was really pleased with both the club's atmosphere and the acoustic of the place. The club was full of real individuals of various age and I really mean various age ranging from 9 to I don't know, 70? The band showed up on stage at 8:30 PM sharp and kicked off with emotional version of one of Frank's regular concert starters Black Napkins. Shivers, shivers, shivers all across my body. This night's setlist consisted of all manner of song from different decades of Frank's career, we even got the nice rendition of Synclavier-composed G-Spot Tornado. I was impressed by beautiful and really freak-out sax solos played by Scheila Gonzalez and the new vocalist Bob Thomas. At one moment I literally started crying when unexpectedly in the middle of Inca Roads Scheila started playing wonderful, really touching solo, I was in the empyrean that very moment. The whole concert was filled with amazing musicianship and some crazy, flamboyant solos (especially in Pound For A Brown On The Bus). As an encore the band performed among others one of the first Zappa compositions I've heard in my life, namely Willie The Pimp with a real dynamic guitar solo. The house light went on at precisely 22:30 PM and for next several quarters Dweezil and his band members were signing cover sleeves, tickets and whatever people approached them with. I had the opportunity to talk to Dweezil for a minute and thanked him for what he's doing in the remembrance of his late father. That was a truly magical evening and as close as possible to indescribable Frank Zappa concert phenomenon. Here I'd like to thank my dearest C. for making this evening possible and for being around me that day, also big thank yous to my beloved friend Asia for entertaining us and putting us up that night. Big kudos to both of you.

Home - a documentary by Yann Arthus-Bertrand.

Home is a documentary by Yann Arthus-Bertrand. The film is entirely composed of aerial shots of various places around Earth. It shows the diversity of life on Earth and how humanity is threatening the ecological balance of the planet. The movie was released simultaneously on June 5th in cinemas all over the world, on DVD, TV and on YouTube. Released on the same date in 50 countries is a world record for any film release in history. The film is 100% free, and no profits will be made from its release or future showings.



For the whole movie in HD online go here

the muse asks not for the right time

- i feel blessed

- i feel proud

- i feel secure

- i feel fine

- i feel in love

- slightly afraid

- i know it'll be fine

- cause i'm with thee

- and you love me

- no matter what

- we will be free

- my tired brain

- is filled with thoughts

- that soon, one day

- i'll untie those knots

- we'll be in peace

- gone will be fears

- and you'll be there

- to watch me stare

- at your soft cheeks

- and we'll be one

40 years ago

"Give Peace a Chance" was recorded on 1 June 1969 in Room 1742 at the Queen Elizabeth Hotel in Montreal, Canada. The recording session was attended by dozens of journalists and various celebrities, including Timothy Leary, Rabbi Abraham Feinberg, Joseph Schwartz, Allan Rock, Rosemary Woodruff Leary, Petula Clark, Dick Gregory, Allen Ginsberg, Murray the K, Al Capp and Derek Taylor, many of whom are mentioned in the lyrics. Lennon played acoustic guitar and was joined by Tommy Smothers of the Smothers Brothers, also on acoustic guitar.