Make it go away...

And each year when I think Christmas time cannot get sadder I'm proved to be wrong and this year's Christmas Day is the saddest of them all. Without even leaving my room I'm trying to force myself to feel the magic of Yule. I've dusted off some records I haven't been listening to for ages. They improve my mood. They gently rock my worried mind. This mood of mine doesn't surpise me, I've always been way too emotional for this ugly world and on days like this, I pay the price for being ridiculously hyper-emotional, hyper-sensitive and a bit pathetic as well. Guess I'm only dreaming about this time to be finished and for an ordinary, grey, colourless days to take over again. "when the heartbeat slows, when the silence grows". I miss You...

My 2008 Wrap Up

So it's that time again when I gather all this year's releases in one basket, look at them closely and fish out those which impressed me and touched me the most. What has derived from this exciting act is the list that looks as follows :

MUSIC-WISE : My TOP 5 Albums of the Year :




STEVEN WILSON - Insurgentes



LUNATIC SOUL - Lunatic Soul



COLDPLAY - Viva La Vida or Death and All His Friends + Prospekt's March



COMA - Hipertrofia



NO-MAN - Schoolyard Ghosts


Other great releases include:

ALANIS MORISSETTE - Flavors of Entanglement
AYREON - 01011001
BASS COMMUNION - Pacific Codex
BASS COMMUNION - Haze Shrapnel (With Freiband)
BASS COMMUNION - Molotov And Haze
BASS COMMUNION - Live in Mexico City (With PIG)
BEARDFISH - Sleeping In Traffic PART TWO
BUCKETHEAD - Albino Slug
BUCKETHEAD - Enter The Chicken
BUCKETHEAD - From the Coop
BUCKETHEAD, TRAVIS DICKERSON & BRIAN - The Dragons of Eden
COLDPLAY - Prospekt's March
DAVID BYRNE - Big Love: Hymnal
DAVID BYRNE & BRIAN ENO - Everything That Happens Will Happen Today
EDDIE VEDDER - Into The WIld
EPHRAT - No One's Words
DAVID GILMOUR - Live in Gdańsk
GUNS N ROSES - Chinese Democracy
KAYO DOT - Blue Lambency Downward
MADONNA - Hard Candy
MARILLION - Happiness Is the Road
MESHUGGAH - obZen
METALLICA - Death Magnetic
NEAL MORSE - Lifeline
NINE INCH NAILS - Ghosts I-IV
NINE INCH NAILS - The Slip
OMAR RODRIGUEZ LOPEZ - Absence Makes the Heart Grow Fungus
OMAR RODRIGUEZ LOPEZ & JEREMY MICHAEL WARD - Omar Rodriguez-Lopez & Jeremy Michael Ward
OPETH - Watershed
PETER GABRIEL & FRIENDS - Big Blue Ball
PORCUPINE TREE - We Lost The Skyline
PRAXIS - Profanation (Preparation for a Coming Darkness)
QUEEN + PAUL RODGERS - The Cosmos Rocks
RADIOHEAD - in Rainbows
REM - Accelerate
RINGO STARR - Liverpool 8
SHERYL CROW - Detours
SIGUR ROS - Me? su? í eyrum vi? spilum endalaust
THE MARS VOLTA - The Bedlam in Goliath
VARIOUS ARTISTS - Across The Universe Soundtrack


MOVIE-WISE MY TOP 6 LISTS :



Across The Universe



Into The Wild




THE DARK KNIGHT




ELEGY



EDEN LAKE




CLOVERFIELD

Plus of course :

4 Months, 3 Weeks and 2 Days
88 Minutes
Blindness
Burn After Reading
Changeling
Pathology
SAW V
The Bank Job
The Midnight Meat Train
The Oxford Murders
The Strangers
Transsiberian
WALL-E
Wanted


As I was spending way too much time in front of the telly I also have some favorites as far as TV Shows go. Some mindblowing and truly addictive shows are out there such as :





BROTHERHOOD




THE SHIELD

FAMILY GUY





TRUE BLOOD

OK, that's it I gotta get more life next year.

The Outcome

I woke up today
Expecting to find all that I sought
And climb the mountains of the life I bought
Finally I'm at the top of every hierarchy
Unfortunately there is no one left
But me

I woke up today
To a world that's ground to dust, dirt and stone
I'm the king upon this withering throne
I ruled every forest, every mountain, every sea
Now there're but ruins left to rule for me
And... you see, it beckons me;
Life turned its back on us
How could you just agree?
...how? I just don't see...

I woke up today
To a world devoid of forests and trees
Drained of every ocean, every sea
Just like a useless brick upon the shore
The morning after the storm
That swept the bridge away
Relentless tide
No anger
Just this relentless time
That calls us all on
But...

I'm never crossing that line
Leaving this world behind
I will stay on my own
On this bloodstained throne
I rule the ruins and wrecks
And the dust, dirt and stone
I rule rage rod and rattling of bones

I am on my own
I am all alone
Everything is gone
Stuck forever here
Already cold

Naive notions that were childish

"And only passing time
Could kill the boredom we acquired

Running with the losers for a while
But our Empty Sky was filled with laughter
Just before the flood
Painting worried faces with a smile"

Bernie Taupin

One of those sleepless nights

"I look after you the way I ought not to, I can't look after you the way I crave for..."

Yet another sad anniversary

28 years ago the world became a sadder and even more hopeless place.

"If someone thinks that peace and love is just a cliche that must have been left behind in the sixties, that's a problem. Peace and love are eternal"
JOHN LENNON

FRANK we remember...

December 4th 2008 marks the 15th anniversary of Frank Zappa's passing. We remember Frank and in my memories You have never been more alive than You are right now. Thank you for Your genius.

“I don't care whether I'm remembered. As a matter of fact, there's a lot of people who would like to forget about me as soon as possible, and I'm on their side! You know? Just ... hurry up and get it over with. I do what I do because I like doing it, I do it for my amusement first, if it amuses you ... that's fine. I'm happy that you'll participate in it. But, uh, after I am dead and gone, there is no need to deal with any of this stuff, because it is not written for future generations, it is not performed for future generations. It is performed for now. Get it while it's hot, you know? That's it.”

Frank Zappa from "There Is No Need"

one last goodbye

How I needed you
How I grieve now you're gone
In my dreams I see you
I awake so alone

I know you didn't want to leave
Your heart yearned to stay
But the strength I always loved in you
Finally gave way

Somehow I knew you would leave me this way
Somehow I knew you could never, never stay
And in the early morning light
After a silent peaceful night
You took my heart away
And my being

In my dreams I can see you
I can tell you how I feel
In my dreams I can hold you
And it feels so real

I still feel the pain
I still feel your love
I still feel the pain
I still feel your love

And somehow I knew you could never, never stay
And somehow I knew you would leave me
And in the early morning light
After a silent peaceful night
You took my heart away
I wish you could have stayed

A Way Out

Out of joint, out of true, out of love,
out of the blue, out of order, out of orbit,
out of control,
out of touch, out of line, out of sync
and out of time, out of gas, out of tread,
out of road.
Out of date, out of stock, out of use -
out, out dammed spot!
You want out, you want out of it for good.
Out of the running, out of the game,
out on your feet, clear out of range,
out of context, out of contact,
out of the woods.
Out, out, looking for a way out,
no straws are left to cling to;
out, out, going for the fade-out...
but what do you fade into?
Out on the town, out for laughs,
out of service, out to grass,
out of mourning, our of purdah,
out of bail,
out of kilter, out grace,
out to get out of this place,
out of this world, out and out
beyond the plae.
Right out of character, out of sympathy,
so far out upon a limb
you're out of your tree....
Out of breath, out of tune, out of your head
and out of view, down and out,
out for the count, or is it just for revenge?
Out of sight, out of mind, leave it out,
leave it behind out of reach
of all family, all friends
Out, out, going for the bale-out,
no parachute above you.
Out, out, you'll not feel the fall-out
...I wish I'd said "I love you"

(Peter Hammill)