I do

Feeling much better now, the tranquility is re-established despite the grim vision of being extremely busy today and tomorrow going through the university ordeal. Spent literally hours yesterday and today (very early in the morning) talking on the phone with my beloved C. she makes me feel so secure, strong and loved, being the only hideaway place when my mind is on the downward spiral, dugged in renouncement and despair. How I miss her no one is even close to understand, how I am desperate to be called "Honey Bunny" is beyond anyone's comprehension. How much I love her is even astonishing to me but I do. God knows I do.