BBQ PIT BOYS

This is the yummiest site ever !!! Droooooooling !!!

Thanks God I'm not a vegetarian !!!

Puumaja - Täydelliset kasvot

Video to a song from one of the finest 2009 albums.

TransAtlantic, Hala Arena, Poznań 06.05.2010

Ordered x 2 !!!

Good Days

These passed few days were filled with serenity, comfort, tenderness, excitement and peace of mind. Spent some time with my friends who came from Wales with their son to visit their families. We hang around in one of Tychy's pubs chatting, laughing and having a great time. I took two days off on Thursday and spent amazing time with Caroline helping her to get her apartment organized and cleaned up a little. I could see tranquility in her eyes and again we were looking into each other's eyes with the feeling as strong as one year ago when the whole adventure was beginning. We parted on Friday evening going to our homes only to meet again Saturday afternoon. This weekend was absolutely charming, relaxing, watching movies, talking, walking around the city, going to church together, sleeping nestled and even FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE ice-skating on Tychy's ice-rink. Gotta admit that skating is pretty cool though the much time is needed to tame the freaking runners however the fun is worth it. Caroline talked me into skating and throughout our time there she was so supportive, patient and kind. She's a real angel.

06-05-2010 TransAtlantic in Poland

I can't believe it, after a decade since its last tour, Transatlntic is touring again. On May 6th Transatlantic is going to play in Poznań's Arena Hall !!! I'm so going to be there regardless of tickets and train price. It will be wonderful to participate in this prog-rock celebration watching and listening to talents of Mike Portnoy (Dream Theater), Neal Morse, Roine Stolt (The Flower Kings) and Pete Trewavas (Marillion). Hopefully I won't go there alone what will only make the whole experience even more magic and breathtaking. That info truly made my day.

небеса

Spent an absolutely fabulous time with my Caroline this weekend. It was only 24 hours or so but it was such a high quality time that it fueled me with strength and peace for long, freezing days to come. There was nothing out of the ordinary in the way we spent these hours but there was a sense of magic and tranquility present in the air. We were talking and watching the "Brock Lane" movie, fell asleep entwined and entwined we woke up as the day was slowly approaching noon. Meals prepared and consumed together, holding hands during Sunday's service and lazy time on the couch, stroking her face and brushing her long, beautiful hair. How wonderful ordinary days can be with her by my side. Heaven.

That time again

This time of year approaches again, the cringeworthy thoughts start to pop up in my head, I know I'll be solitary again this Christmas without The Dearest One by my side.
This year's Christmas gonna be so much different from what I got use to. It's so sad that what is suppose to be the merriest time of year always bring me down like nothing else in the world. This year was so difficult for me, so much has happened, so many good and uplifting things as well as some real, heartbreaking tragedies involving hurting some really kind people and having to live with it. This year after Christmas Supper at my sister's I'll be heading home to contemplate the silent sorrow in empty flat, visiting church at midnight followed by probably getting drunk in the company of just myself. How exciting is that? How can I be merry ? This year I realized how distant are the members of my family from one another, how we walk pass one another day after day, how indifferent we are toward one another, this too is so sad...but I guess it's always like that when faced "the model", you suddenly realize how cripple and pathetic the reality surrounding you is. My mind is filled with thoughts, most of them grim and obscured by sadness. How happy I am that somewhere there, there is a lady who cares and to whom I am not just a figure passing by, a lady who has just phoned me putting smile on my face and warmth in my heart. More to come...

JOHN LENNON 29 years ago today

JOHN LENNON

9 October 1940 – 8 December 1980

Always in my mind, always in my heart

I do

Feeling much better now, the tranquility is re-established despite the grim vision of being extremely busy today and tomorrow going through the university ordeal. Spent literally hours yesterday and today (very early in the morning) talking on the phone with my beloved C. she makes me feel so secure, strong and loved, being the only hideaway place when my mind is on the downward spiral, dugged in renouncement and despair. How I miss her no one is even close to understand, how I am desperate to be called "Honey Bunny" is beyond anyone's comprehension. How much I love her is even astonishing to me but I do. God knows I do.

Fed Up

I'm fucking sick of it all today,
fed up with:
indifference
stagnation
lack of understanding
expectations
loneliness
pathologically vile family
longing
studies
AZS
the void i'm in
waiting
...


I need some rest !!!
I need you C. !!!