And now I don’t know why
She wouldn’t say goodbye
But then it seems that I
Had seen it in her eyes
And it might not be wise
I’d still have to try
With all the love I have inside
I can’t deny
I just can’t let it die
Cause her heart’s just like mine
And she holds her pain inside
So if you ask me why
She wouldn’t say goodbye
I know somewhere inside
There is a special light
Still shining bright
And even on the darkest night
She can’t deny
So if she’s somewhere near me
I hope to God she hears me
There’s no one else could ever make me feel
I’m so alive
I hoped she’d never leave me
Please God you must believe me
I’ve searched the universe and found myself
Within’ her eyes
No matter how I try
They say it’s all a lie
So what’s the use of my
Confessions to a crime
Of passions that won’t die
In my heart
And now I don’t know why
She wouldn’t say goodbye
It just might be that I
Had seen it in her eyes
And now it seems that I
Gave up my ghost of pride
I’ll never say goodbye
30 Nov 2009
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Every time you're far away I'm panicking, feeling as if I was lost in darkness, feeling that I'm losing You and cannot do anything to make you stay... Don't go...Don't hate me, I'm not special like you. I'm tired and so alone...Life's too difficult and cruel without You holding my hand...
26 Nov 2009
and i still believe
For the second time today you unexpectedly phoned me, putting smile on my face and excitement which I felt deep in my stomach, suddenly the whole world became a better place and the sun seemed to shine more brightly as you spoke those tender and full of caring words to me. I was absorbing every single one of them, every single sigh, every single laughter of yours. I never thought it would be possible to fall in love over and over again and I feel I do. I do fall in love with you all over again, exactly like year ago. And I still belive that Amor Vincit Omnia.
aches and sufferings
Terrible headache makes my life a drag during the last three days, body suffers so does the mind. Suspended in the void for almost two weeks now. My Dearest One's body suffers as well, stomach makes her days insufferable ones. Why do we have to be tormented and apart from each other when the only thing we dream of is being together like we know we can be, happy, calm and fulfilled. Miss You so much...
The Challenge
"When we least expect it, life sets us a challenge to test our courage and willingness to change; at such a moment, there is no point in pretending that nothing has happened or in saying that we are not ready. The challenge will not wait. Life does not look back. A week is more than enough time for us to decide whether or not to accept our destiny."
Paulo Coelho
24 Nov 2009
Queen - Innuendo
Easily one of the most significant and groundshaking moments in the history of music.
While the sun hangs in the sky and the desert has sand
While the waves crash in the sea and meet the land
While there's a wind and the stars and the rainbow
'Till the mountains crumble into the plain
Oh yes we'll keep on trying'
Tread that fine line
Oh we'll keep on trying' yeah
Just passing' our time
While we live according to race, color or creed
While we rule by blind madness and pure greed
Our lives dictated by tradition, superstition, false religion
Through the eons, and on and on
Oh yes we'll keep on trying'
We'll tread that fine line
Oh oh we'll keep on trying'
'Till the end of time
'Till the end of time
Through the sorrow all through our splendor
Don't take offence at my innuendo
You can be anything you want to be
Just turn yourself into anything you think that you could ever be
Be free with your tempo be free be free
Surrender your ego be free be free to yourself
If there's a God or any kind of justice under the sky
If there's a point if there's a reason to live or die
If there's an answer to the questions we feel bound to ask
Show yourself - destroy our fears - release your mask
Oh yes we'll keep on trying
Hey tread that fine line
Yeah we'll keep on smiling yeah (yeah yeah)
And whatever will be will be
We'll keep on trying
We'll just keep on trying
'Till the end of time
'Till the end of time
'Till the end of time
While the sun hangs in the sky and the desert has sand
While the waves crash in the sea and meet the land
While there's a wind and the stars and the rainbow
'Till the mountains crumble into the plain
Oh yes we'll keep on trying'
Tread that fine line
Oh we'll keep on trying' yeah
Just passing' our time
While we live according to race, color or creed
While we rule by blind madness and pure greed
Our lives dictated by tradition, superstition, false religion
Through the eons, and on and on
Oh yes we'll keep on trying'
We'll tread that fine line
Oh oh we'll keep on trying'
'Till the end of time
'Till the end of time
Through the sorrow all through our splendor
Don't take offence at my innuendo
You can be anything you want to be
Just turn yourself into anything you think that you could ever be
Be free with your tempo be free be free
Surrender your ego be free be free to yourself
If there's a God or any kind of justice under the sky
If there's a point if there's a reason to live or die
If there's an answer to the questions we feel bound to ask
Show yourself - destroy our fears - release your mask
Oh yes we'll keep on trying
Hey tread that fine line
Yeah we'll keep on smiling yeah (yeah yeah)
And whatever will be will be
We'll keep on trying
We'll just keep on trying
'Till the end of time
'Till the end of time
'Till the end of time
How true is that !
"The essence of Christianity is told to us in the Garden of Eden history. The fruit that was forbidden was on the Tree of Knowledge. The subtext is, All the suffering you have is because you wanted to find out what was going on. You could be in the Garden of Eden if you had just kept your fucking mouth shut and hadn't asked any questions."
Frank Zappa Interviewed for Playboy Magazine , May 2, 1993
Puumaja - "Meriselityksia"
Yesterday upon my returning home after work I found the grey envelope with a stamp from Finland and inside the envelope, there was a newly released debut CD by my friend's, Mikko Merillainen, band Puumaja. I met Mikko back in the Spring of 2005 in Edinburgh and spent a great amount of time hanging around together discussing music, movies and male-female relations (that nasty, under-shower story was just insane). I was handed in a demo version of some of the tracks from "Meriselityksia" back in 2005 and now I am finally able to listen to their fully produced, often quite lavish versions and I am impressed. The album is so melodic, haunting and beautiful. Of course I've no idea what Mikko is singing about as it's all in Finnish but love it anyway. Thank you Mikko for such an nice and memorable gesture. "Meriselityksia" is going straight to my 2009 Top Albums list.
23 Nov 2009
20 Nov 2009
Why does a musician start making music?
“Why does a musician start making music? He starts making music to share it with as many people as possible. If he has any other motive, then he’s not a musician, he’s an entertainer. If he wants to be a star and wants to make money, that’s not a musician.”
STEVEN WILSON
19 Nov 2009
13 Nov 2009
5 Nov 2009
in your eyes
All my instincts, they return
and the grand facade, so soon will burn
without a noise, without my pride
I reach out from the inside
In your eyes
the light the heat
I am complete
in your eyes
I see the doorway to a thousand churches,
the resolution of all the fruitless searches
in your eyes
I see the light and the heat
I want to be that complete
I want to touch the light
the heat I see in your eyes
Love, I don't like to see so much pain
so much wasted and this moment keeps slipping away
I get so tired of working so hard for our survival
I look to the time with you to keep me awake and alive
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